"I have some good news and some bad news...The bad news is that I relapsed while at work... I felt terrible Zeyad, I just stood there in the bathroom not even able to look myself in the mirror. "

"I felt so angry with myself and decided that this was enough... Whatever you want to call it, the good news is that I decided I would not let Shaytan (the devil) win this time and miss dhuhr (midday) and asr (afternoon) prayers like I usually do when I relapse."